well, i'm still trying to accept the fact
but
somehow i seem more calm
eventhough i know there are no more US :')
although
deep inside
it hurt like hell
but
i still manage to pretend that everything okay
i still manage to fake a smile
i still can pretend a laugh
well, i guess
i'm strong
or
i'm just really good in pretending
acting
and hiding everything behind a fake smile
still
i couldn't hide everything
mama and babah keep asking me to eat
i'm sorry, mama
i'm sorry, babah
it seems like i lose my appetite these few days
but
don't worry bout me
sooner or later
i will overcome this
so, stop worrying okey?
and
i'm sorry too, "abang bujad"
i have been turning off my phone these past few days
and
you keep calling me these past few days
i know you are worried bout me
but
you should know your little sister better
she can overcome it
she is strong :')
and
thanks to you "abang bujad"
for giving me some time and space
on my own
i'm seriously need it
thanks for always be here for me :)
now
i'm not fine
BUT
I'M ALL BETTER :')
i would be lying if i say
i'm completely over you
and
i would be a hypocrite
if i say i'm not sad and frustrated
urm
no matter what
i'm strong
sooner or later
i can overcome this sadness and frustration
all i need is time
to accept all this
though i'm still longing for you
care
and
love you
let's it just stay hidden behind
this fake smile :')
>>awak kuat!!!!
ReplyDeletesaya memang kuat! kuat mcm harimau! *effect mkn biskut tiger*
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