11 things :)

2011 almost ended 

it's been a long year


many things have been done and said


memories are made


tears, laughter and smiles fulfil this whole year


through the 12 months that i have been through in 2011


there are 11 things that i learn :)





lesson number 1 :)

LOVE IS TOTALLY UNDEFINED AND UNEXPLAINABLE!

love can be started with unexpected person,


because of small things


and


ended with some silly random reason


lesson number 2 :)

EVERYTHING HAPPENS HAVE IT OWN REASON

and every little reason come from a decision


lesson number 3 :)

DON'T FALL TOO HARD FOR SOMEONE

if u don't want to cry hard later


lesson number 4 :)

SMILE IS THE BEST MASK!

it can cover up ur pain and sadness


lesson number 5 :)

SOMETIMES BEING A HYPOCRITE

DO HELP A LOT..


lesson number 6 :)

CRY DOESN'T MEANT U R WEAK!

it's just a way to let go


and


a preparation to MOVE ON!


lesson number 7 :)

THE BIG FAT EGO

 IS A GOOD SHIELD

TO PROTECT U FROM THE EVIL PAIN


lesson number 8 :)

if u were meant


to be together

DOESN'T MATTER

when


where

OR

why


u will be together

NO MATTER WHAT..


lesson number 9 :)

LOVE ARE TRUE IF..

if he or she truly loves u


they will always accept u no matter what


and


no matter what they will always keep holding on


lesson 10 :)

when u think u really know that someone

THINK AGAIN!


lesson 11 :)

GOD don't give us what we want

HE give us what we NEED!



since it's the last day of 2011


let's cherish every moments of it


and


everything that happen in 2011


let's just keep it as a sweet memory


that make us who we are today


whether it's a sad one or a happy one


cherish every second of it


have a happy new year everyone!


hoping for a very good year ahead


and wishing everyone happiness and joy 


through the upcoming year


remember the past


cherish the present


and 


expect the future :)

a walk to remember :)

tense overload

pressure at maximum level

lack of sleeping seriously don't help much

i really need some time out!

but 

thanks to three great people

I AM NOW FEELING BETTER!

thank guys for the great time we had today

i'm really appreciated it

and 

i really need it..  A LOT! 

spending money buying random things

eating like there's no tomorrow

snapping some pixcha here and there!

let's see what happens today :)

pizza tyme :)

the talkative cousin and the annoying lil brother :)

yummy!

eating ice cream  :)

the adeq and the "besties"

driver of the day! the besties :)

and

i got to play in the rain today

i really love getting wet

walking in the rain make me forget everything

seems like rains wash my pains away

and 

i'm feeling better now :)

i can accept everything

and

i can smile again

thanks to them!

i'm glad i have u guys when i'm feel down

and to make me all better

now

I'M AL BETTER :)

saya kuat :')

well, i'm still trying to accept the fact

but 

somehow i seem more calm

eventhough i know there are no more US :')

although

deep inside 

it hurt like hell

but

i still manage to pretend that everything okay

i still manage to fake a smile

i still can pretend a laugh

well, i guess

i'm strong

or 

i'm just really good in pretending

acting

and hiding everything behind a fake smile

still

i couldn't hide everything

mama and babah keep asking me to eat

i'm sorry, mama

i'm sorry, babah

it seems like i lose my appetite these few days

but

don't worry bout me

sooner or later 

i will overcome this

so, stop worrying okey?

and

i'm sorry too, "abang bujad"

i have been turning off my phone these past few days

and

you keep calling me these past few days

i know you are worried bout me

but

you should know your little sister better

she can overcome it

she is strong :')

and 

thanks to you "abang bujad"

for giving me some time and space

on my own

i'm seriously need it

thanks for always be here for me :)

now

i'm not fine

BUT

I'M ALL BETTER :')

i would be lying if i say

i'm completely over you

and 

i would be a hypocrite

if i say i'm not sad and frustrated

urm

no matter what

i'm strong

sooner or later

i can overcome this sadness and frustration

all i need is time

to accept all this

though i'm still longing for you

care 

and 

love you

let's it just stay hidden behind 

this fake smile :')

awak :'(

awak :'(

7 Disember 2011

saya tak sangka saya akn khlgn awk 

pada tarikh tue

awak

awak tau kan saya syg awak?

kenapa awk hancurkan hati saya?

kenapa awk buat saya mcm nie?

awak

mungkin salah saya trlampau sygkan awk

saya dah ulang kslhn yang sama

dgn terlampau syg dgn awk

terlampau percaya dgn awk

sekarang

saya yang sakit

sakit yang sama mcm 5 tahun lepas

awak

saya dah letih menangis 

saya plg benci sekali menangis

tapi

awk dah buat saya menangis lagi

kali ini

awk takkan mampu lagi pujuk saya

macam dulu

kali ini

takde sorang pun yg akan mampu pujuk saya

saya tak tau berapa lama pulak saya akn menangis kali ini

saya tak tau berapa lama saya mampu bertahan

saya tak tau berapa lama saya boleh bangkit semula

saya tak tau awk :'(

awak

mungkin bagi awk ini keputusan yang terbaik

tapi

awak tau tak?

awak dah buat saya menangis lagi

hancur hati saya, awak

saya tak tau berapa lama pulak yang saya perlukan kali ini

sebelum nie, saya amik masa 5 tahun 

utk terima org lain

kali nie

mungkin 5 tahun lagi kot :'(

utk org lain selepas awk

awak

saya tak tau mcm mana nak berdepan dengan awk nanti

kuat ke saya,awk?

awak

urusan kita belum selesai

saya akan pulangkan semua hak awak

sebab semua benda tue bukan hak saya lagi

saya tak layak memiliki semua tue

awak tunggu,yer?

tunggu tau

saya akan pulangkan jugak :'(

awak

ini mungkin pengakuan saya buat kali terakhir utk awak

awak ingat tau!

yang

SAYA SAYANG AWAK!

SAYANG SANGAT-SANGAT!

walaupun saya akui awak banyak sakitkan hati saya

awak banyak buat saya nangis

awak kecikkan hati saya

saya tak kisah semua tue

sekalipun tak terdetik di hati saya

untuk tinggalkan awak

sekalipun saya tak pernah menyesal kenal awak

sekalipun saya tak berniat untuk benci awak

saya nak awak tahu

saya bersyukur atas kehadiran awak dalam hidup saya

walaupun sekejap

saya berterima kasih kat awak

awak dah banyak ajar saya

awak dah buka hati saya 

awak dah banyak menyedarkan saya

awak dah membimbing saya

terima kasih awak

terima kasih atas kasih sayang yang awak beri

atas keikhlasan yang awak tunjukkan

atas kesabaran awak kepada saya

atas kejujuran awak 

atas semuanya laa :')

saya takkan benci awak

awak

beri saya masa untuk telan semua nie

saya tau awak tak nak kta terputus hubungan terus

awak nak kta jadi kawan, kan?

urm

beri saya ruang untuk terima awk semula mcm dulu

beri saya kesempatan untuk berdiri semula

mungkin saya takkan jadi macam dulu lagi

tapi

walau apa pun jadi kelak

awak kena tau

yang saya tak berniat nak buat awk mcm tue

dan 

saya tak benci awak

TAKKAN

walaupun masa nie saya masih harapkan kita mcm dulu

tapi awak,

awak jangan risau

saya takkan paksa awak lagi

kalau ini yang ditentukan oleh Allah

saya redha, awak

saya redha asalkan awk bahagia

saya terima

kalau ada jodoh mungkin kita akan bersama lagi

mungkin..

kalau tak

mungkin ada lagi yang lebih baik yang telah dijanjikan utk kita

maafkan saya, awak

maafkan semua kesalahan saya tau :')

sampai sini je la awak

saya dah tak mampu sekat air mata saya dr mengalir lagi

saya kene berhenti, awak

awak :'(

babah dan mama nak....

mama dan babah memang ada high expectations 

kalau tgk anaknya texting tak henti-henti

mesti terpacul satu ayat keramat

"babah dan mama nak lelaki yg along pilih ada ciri-ciri nie.."

lelaki yang soleh :) 

*it's a priority*

alasan mama n babah

 " dia kna bimbing along nanti, jadi dia sendiri kena pndai"

- well it's make sense-

he will guide me, so he should have strong belief and religious too :)

mamat yang kerja tetap :)

alasan mama n babah

"mesti ada kerja tetap, kalau tak nak makan ape nanti?"

-it's totally make sense too-

betol la kan?

kalau x da keje nak makan ape nanti?

pasir?

batu?

nak jer koma lepas nie :)

hormat org tua

alasan mama n babah

"kalau tak reti hormat org tua, mcm mna dia nak hormat awk nanti?"

- totally agree! -

seorang bersederhana :)

alasan mama n babah

"sederhana dr pelbagai segi baik rupa mahupun pangkat

nanti takde la org nak rebut"

- yg nie mgkin sebab mama n babah banyak sangat tgk drama -

last sekali

seorang lelaki yang sgt syg akn ibu bapanya

alasan mama n babah

"kalau dia mampu syg mak n bpk dia lebih dr apa pun, dia akn 

mampu jaga awk sebaik yg mungkin"

aha :)

yang kat atas tue adala

 lima kriteria utama dalam pemilihan menantu mama n babah

high expectations jugak,kan?

tapi mama an babah 

along blm lagi nak mencari menantu utk mama an babah

mama an babah

jangan risau 

lambat lagi..

along nak enjoy dulu

tak nak terikat dengan tanggungjwb

belajar pun tak abis lagi

mama an babah pun tak galakkan 

along bercinta waktu belajar,

 kan?

walaupun hakikatnya along dah pun melanggar "galakan" yang satu tue

yang ada sekarang nie pun dah hampir menepati

kalau mmg dia jodoh yang ditetapkan

along dah bersyukur dah :)

kalau bukan, along redha

mungkin ada yg lebih baik utk dia dan juga along

kan mama an babah?

aha :)

lambat lagi..

belajar dulu

4 tahun lagi nak kne dok bertapa

lepas tue baru blh fikir bnde len

ape pun :)

jodoh, ajal dan maut semuanya di tangan Allah :)

wasalam :)

awak, saya sakit!

terima kasih awak!

sekarang

saya sakit!

sakit hati!

tak nak cakap banyak..

hati saya terlampau sakit

sakit sangaaaaat

sila jangan cakap apa-apa dengan saya

 kalau awk tidak maksudkan apa-apa

awak faham?

awk pernah dengar, kan?

berdiam diri lebih baik 

kalau tidak mempunyai sebarang perkara utk dperkatakan

jadi buat masa skrg

saya akn berdiam diri

selagi awk berdiam diri

terima kaseh awak!

sekarang saya

SAKIT HATI!

jalan sampai penat :)

welcome december :)

hope this month will bring a lot of happiness and joy!

and today

it's approximately 

10 days 

i have been in Peninsular of Malaysia

and

6 days 

in babah's hometown, Terengganu

and it's 

already

2 weeks 

since i last saw him =="

auwww~!

i mish him so much!

spending 10 days in Peninsular of Malaysia

i have gone through a lot of things

going from one places to one places

travelling across the country

sightseeing

relaxing

and 

spending valuable time with the "sayangs"

snapping some pixcha along the way

well, let the pixcha tell the story then :)

shopping tyme :)

*sila abaikan beg plastik itu*

i'm in green! (i-city shah alam)

babah and mama in ice :)

i city mode!

cool!

let's move on too, kelantan!

kelantan's palace :)

"the rombongan"

the mosque dome is purple in colour :)

gaahh~!

i'm so tired

spending the next few days in Terengganu

auww~!

i'm sure mish my bed already

i mish home!

i mish BINTULU!

and

outermost

I MISH SI JANTUNG HATI :)

well, dear

about ur call last nite

thanxx :)

i mish that voice of yours

i mish talking sillyrandomcrazy things with u

and 

i mish laughing with u

thanks for always being the reason for my smile, dear

143, encik gulgulahati :)

it's getting late

my eyes are getting heavier

need some sleep now

till then 

gudnyte everyone :)